In Memory of my best friend Jay, that have passed with leukemia, back in 2006
Posted on December 7th, 2014 by Verdensalt
Hi Jay,
Jay and me in Sedona, AZ (only pic of me at SoTW) |
Searching on the Internet recently, surprising googling your dad obituary from 2011. My condolence!, was surprised, however was aware of his conditions and struggling from cancer as well.... Your properly having a ball in cities of light in heaven right now, I'm sure of that....Anyways... the weeks ahead was the best wake-up call for me, how fragile life was, the feeling of numbness or total ignorance, what if .. the guy with the Grim Reaper had come to take you away or some miracle would happen and pull the leukemia cancer straight out of your body, like John Coffey did in The Green Mile. But seems you mind was up to something, you had a plan already. Visiting old friends and relations and saying "goodbye" to all. Actually, I was very grateful. Remember we meet up with your old friend, just recently out of prison, special moments .. we had friends over for dinner, did a lot a stuff, just didn't strike me right at that time back in 2005, it was the last time i ever saw you.
Jay, when the devastating phone call came a few months later from your wife Jeanene, she said with tears in her eyes, "Jay had passed away", things just stopped. You told me, you needed second phase of Chemotherapy treatment in Dallas, Texas after Stem Cell Transplant from Your sister Angela. Well, first of all, You hated that place, particular due to the Bush family's presence. (that's a whole other story )
Well, time has passed now and i do regret not attending Your funeral, even if it was explained to me, You really didn't wanted anybody to come and say goodbye at the Hospital in your condition... everything went so bloody fast from there... I was so upset, WHY? Why i was not allowed coming and saying proper goodbye? .... I could just image you Jay, like the humorous guy everybody always felt for, cutting through bullshit and with a loud voice with English accent tell us "It's just a flesh wound" from Monty Python-The Black Knight. It always cracks me up, thinking about that recitation. Another thing, was not there for You at your wedding, was shameful as well. It seems, when somebody is gone, it's hard to make things right again about the past mistakes we did, who would ever foreseen you dying from cancer at 37 years of age, so unfair.....