Wednesday, December 14, 2016
By American Kabuki
I've been reflecting on the past 4 years. And perhaps a few shoulda, woulda, coulda-s in all that too. You can't every change anything retroactively. But you can learn from it. Best you can do really is avoid repeating things that did not work, speak your mind when it needs to be said, hold your tongue when compassion and patience is needed, and know when to laugh. The tricky part is knowing when to use each tool. And you only know that by feeling each situation.
My father was an intensely honest man, except with himself. He had one glaring flaw, he had to "appear right". Might have been a World War II thing. Or just the nature of a cocky fighter pilot. He would change entire storylines of what he original said or promised, so everyone else would look as the one who misheard or misperceived rather than admit his own humanity. He would argue an illogical point till he was blue in the face, to not admit he misperceived or was simply wrong on a topic. He saw any admittance of not being "correct" as a weakness. I saw it as a flaw. Its a pernicious form of pride that halts personal growth. Humility is not a vice.
In government is a similar a perverted political need to be right, that has spawned every government compartmentalization known to man. Documents are not classified to protect them from the enemy, the enemy, if he's doing his job, already knows. Its to keep it from the people. And this is what has the Hilary supporters so freaking mad, that the truth came out from their very own emails. How dare they expose our corruption? Doesn't matter if it was a German hacker or the Russian government (and nobody truly knows - Russians are smart enough to hide their trail completely as is the NSA!). Sometimes you don't have to make shit up to change things, just telling the truth is enough.
How can one be a self-directed, self-actualizing being, if you can't face your own flaws and imperfections that come from being in human form? Yes everything is perfect, especially our Source given essence, and even the Human form imperfections contribute to a more perfect experience, but perfection is about change not stasis in ways of being that may not be all that beneficial to your expansion or others. "To Be or Not To Be" did not include the phrase "manage other people's perceptions" of your being. Truth is, you can't really manage much of anything people might think of you. You can only BE.
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What I looked like in 1972 |
Not that I have that reputation myself, I got into the habit of not smiling much in high school when I had two broken front teeth, which I did not have funds to fix until I was 22. So I hid my teeth by not smiling. Face it high school is a harsh place. Its a habit that haunts me in every "selfie" I attempt to take to this day. I do smile when other people take photos but never in my own and I know why.